Its all so overwhelming
Becoming a Proverbs 31 Woman, one mindful day at a time.
As a mom, wife and Follower of Jesus, I have always longed to be a Proverbs 31 Woman. But every time I would read through Proverbs 31 I felt more and more unworthy of ever even obtaining half the title of who she is described to. I mean, she seems PERFECT and I am....not.
Oh, I am not.
I fail daily, sometimes multiple times a day. I am constantly coming back to God saying "I screwed up again, I'm so sorry, please help me."
I am not graceful by any means, I trip over everything, my purse is always messy and I am never on time. I really feel like a failure so often but I LONG to be a Proverbs 31 Woman. So I began to ask God in 2020 to help me become one; and what I thought He would do would give a bucket full of gracefulness, make me prettier, whoosh out my hair to make it flow with softness and heavenliness....and all other superficial things I thought made a Proverbs 31 Woman.....then one day I felt him tug at my heart to do something big for others who were in need. He pushed me to create The Give Back Life that would eventually give birth to Blue Chico Retail and begin a small business that helped people the rest of the word did not care to see. The single moms who need diapers. The elderly who need food boxes. The lonely who need cards. Anyone who needed seen.
And as I came back, ever so clumsily, one day to read through that Proverbs 31 chapter again to note my shortcomings I saw this plain as day:
"Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves, for the rights of all who are destitute." Proverbs 31:8
Have you ever had a moment where you read something in the Bible and you don't even have words to utter? I just put the Bible down and stared straight ahead. Was I becoming a Proverbs 31 Woman? And then it hit me, that heaviness in the back of your throat where you can either choose to cry or swallow hard until maybe you can breathe easy, but you know its eventually gonna just creep on up to your eyeballs anyway so why not just let it go. You know, that involuntary response when you realize God answered your prayers and has been working on you and you didn't even notice.
Okay...Okay...I see you God!
I had my starting point, I had one foot on the road to becoming fully the woman I longed to be.
So, then this page happened; because I realized I was probably not alone in this overwhelming journey of trying to be a Proverbs 31 Woman.
Are you on this journey too? If so, I hope you stick around. We NEED Proverbs 31 Women in this day in age. Our daughters need to learn to be them and our sons need to learn how to seek them out when they are old enough to start considering marriage. And it can be overwhelming to get there....but together we will.
